Getting Over

Last Christmas break, I just saw my crush. Well, before I saw him, I said I was over having a crush on him. However, when I saw him, the way I acted was still like that of when I had a crush on him.

So, I asked my sister...

Why is it that even if I am over these guys (actually I felt the same thing with my other crush whom I said that I'm over him too), I still feel uneasy and act as if I still have a crush on them?

Then she simply answered....

You are not yet over him/them - you still have a crush on him/them.

Then, I ask myself, do I? and unfortunately, I think I still do, maybe not that intense anymore but still. How did I know? It was when I thought of my other crushes whom I also saw again but did not feel and act the same way. Thus, lesson learned here is that, sometimes, we mislead ourselves. Though we may think and say that we feel such, truly, we don't and we must accept it. Just like forgiveness. Though we repeatedly say and believe that we forgive this person there are still times, if we think deeply, where we can see that we really haven't forgiven him/her.

Even if we do want to forgive or get over someone, sometimes, we really cannot rush our hearts - that's why, I believe that time heals. :)


note to xuzhu: i already had this in my drafts before we had our little chat...just to let you know that i'm not talkin about your thing eheheh (you know what i mean)

OK! I'm thinking of scrapping off this article because as i saw my crush today, i realized, i think i'm over him already...i'm confused!