Where do I go from here?

This question has been on my mind for some time now "Which is better? to be on top or to be down?" And at this point, my conclusion is leaning towards the latter.

Haven't you noticed that if a person is always failing, everyone is happy if he passes but if a person is a medalist, everyone is sad even if he got a high grade but did not get the medal? So see, from there, you can say that being down is better than being on top because everyone has expectations - even yourself.

It's just like starting a game or a semester or term with high grades but when you reach the end of it, you lose or get really low grades. The feeling would be better if you did not do good at first but became victorious in the end. Other than that, if you feel bad at first, at least that feeling would push you to do better or prove yourself but if it was the other way around, you'd feel frustrated because you wasted the achievements you have gained. The only catch there is if you do not seek to improve yourself when you're down...on time.

Besides, if you are on the down side, there is no where else to go except to go up. In other words, "bilog ang mundo". That's just my opinion, based from experience HAHA! By the way, this is not only about grades, it's really about where you are in life. But then again, it depends on where you see yourself - if you're on top or you're down there. Maybe the solution is, change your perspective!?

Can you be like Rizal - a genius?

Filipinos make Rizal someone unattainable and not a model whon we can follow. If that is so, then what's the use of studying Rizal and not gaining inspiration and nationalism from him or his works? (Ay! Rizalist na daw si Mysue hehe, Sir Mactal kasi! hehe) Anyway, that's just what I learned.

Sir Mactal said that...
Rizal is not a genius (probably intelligent). Though we think that he is a a.k.a Promil-gifted-child, because he knows how to paint, sculpt, write poems, essays and whatever well, we forgot to consider his surroundings. Obviously, at his time, only very few people had libraries at their home, there were no distractions like television then and he had a nanny. He was well-off so the only thing he does is sit. Of course you wouldn't want to do that the whole day so he'd read all the books they've got. Plus, he had uncles or relatives who were skilled in the arts so they taught him when they are young. His poems and writings are perfect because they were polished and proofed-read, probably by his mom, and those that are so-so, he destroyed them. He decided to be a hero!

So the answer to my question is, yes, you can be like Rizal because he's not a genius. Anyone can be a hero. That's the point. So can someone please save our country from damnation (sorry for the term - just popped in my head)? Decide to be a hero now!

As for me, I have decided and my reply is..no thanks! :)

Everything has its purpose

Actually, i forgot about this story until my sister mentioned it. It's funny that she remembered it and I didn't because I was the one who told her the story. Where'd I get the story? ehhe from some priest (homily). Anyway, just writing this down so that I won't forget the next time. Obviously, this story tells us that things happen for a reason.

There is this girl who go impregnated (because she was raped, i think - i forgot) when she was 15 years old (or 16, i'm not sure). Though the parents did not want this to happen to their child and thought of this as a misfortune or a punishment, apparently, it did and still they kept the baby. After how many years, the girl got married and wanted to have kids of their own. However, this time, they could not because by this time, she developed ovarian cyst and got rid of her ovaries. If she wasn't impregnated then, she wouldn't have had a child. The end.

So, see...when times get worse, have a little faith. Everything has its purpose. :)